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Fic: Flawed Makes Us

Title: Flawed Makes Us
Fandom: Torchwood
Pairing/Characters: Jack/Ianto, Tosh, Owen and Gwen
Summary: Not all scars are visible some are deep wounds on the soul and they are the ones that take the longest to heal.
Rating: PG-15
Disclaimer: I do not own Torchwood
Author Notes: Written for the h_c bingo prompt: scars and this is the sequel to Broken Glass. Unbeta’d so please forgive any mistakes.


Tension filled Gwen as she slowly entered the Hub, the laughter from her teammates echoing down to her from the conference room. ‘You can do this Gwen, all you have to do is tell them you’re sorry and everything will go back to normal.’ Gwen told herself as she forced her legs to move and walk up the stairs and confront the people she accidentally hurt yesterday. 


‘I don’t even understand why Jack is making me do this? They know I didn’t mean it like that. Honestly they’re making a big deal out of nothing.’ Gwen huffed silently to herself; she had more important things to do then pamper her colleges hurt feelings. ‘They just can’t understand what it’s like to have someone on the outside and the fear that you might not becoming home to them.’ Taking a deep breath Gwen steadied herself and with her head held high walked into the conference room.


All conversation stopped and tension filled the once joyful room as hurt and fury radiated off of Owen and Tosh in waves. Jack squeezed Ianto’s hand tighter, the hand he hadn’t let go of the entire time he was explain why he reacted the way he did at Gwen’s demanded. Owen and Tosh had understood and after some cursing from Owen and reassuring a worried Tosh that he was okay Jack knew they had forgive him for letting Gwen get something none of them got someone on the outside knowing the truth about their jobs.


All four gazes slowly turned to land on Gwen and Jack knew the moment he saw the steeled look in Gwen’s eyes she still had no clue how deeply she hurt her teammates with her unfeeling words yesterday. She didn’t see the scars that lingered on all their souls; all four of them have lost those who meant the world to them all thanks to Torchwood, something Gwen hasn’t suffered through yet and therefore couldn’t understand the true depth of their losses.


“Gwen, I think you have something to say?” Gwen flinched at the coldness in Jack’s voice or the ice in his normally warm blue eyes.


‘You can do this Gwen, all you have to do is say you’re sorry and that will be that.’ Gwen was confident that once she said she was sorry this would all be forgotten. “I’m sorry for what I said yesterday. I let my emotions rule me and I said some things that I didn’t mean. I hope we can all get past this.” She flashed them her sweetest smile and her most soulful eyes.


“You except us to buy that bullshit?!” Owen demanded as he shot to his feet pushing his chair away with some much force that Ianto fear it would leave a dent in the wall.


Gwen openly gaped at Owen the pure venom in his eyes striking deep into her soul. She tried to get her mouth to work but nothing wanted to come out.


Owen stalked closer to Gwen fury pouring off of him. “You, don’t get to speak you said your piece yesterday, now it’s our turn. We are not cold and lonely as you so kindly put it. You rub your so-called perfect and happily relationship in our faces every chance you can. Yet you found your way into my bed more then once and lust after Jack like a cat in heat daily. What you have with Rhys is not love. I know what love is Gwen, I know it’s not cold and lonely out there. I loved and still love Katie with all that I am and the loss of her will always leave a scar on my heart along with the what-could have been. You don’t know what it’s like to have your whole world ripped out from under you.” By the end of his rant Owen’s voice became choked and filled with heartbreak as he thought of Katie.


“But I do not what that feels like! I lost Rhys do to Bilis!” Gwen remembered full well the terror that griped her when she lost Rhys.


“Yeah, but you go him back!” Owen spat back at her. “I always wondered why you opened the Rift to bring him back when you then went on to spend the next week at Jack’s side completely ignoring Rhys. You had no business playing the grieving widow when your lover was alive. It was Ianto who should have stayed by Jack’s side and not you. You’re selfish ways robbed Ianto of that right.”


Jack felt Ianto tense at Owen’s reminder of his week long death, not caring that Ianto didn’t like to flaunt their relationship in the front of others Jack wrapped his arm around Ianto’s shoulder and pressed a tender kiss against Ianto’s temple.


The tender gesture did not escape Gwen’s notice and she felt something stab deep within her heart, it hurt to see Jack and Ianto sharing something so tender and precious.


“Owen’s right.” Tosh’s soft voice spoke up and all eyes turned to her. Not all the comfortable with being the center of attention Tosh tried not to fidget under all their gazes but it was the kind look in Ianto’s eyes and Jack’s reassuring nod that had Tosh taking a deep breath and turning to meet Gwen’s gaze head on.


“You act like you’re better then the rest of us all because you claim to have more humanity then us and because you have a relationship and life outside of Torchwood. But you’re not Gwen. You have no right in treating us like heartless monsters. We’ve seen things you’ve never experienced before. You can’t even begin to understand the personal losses we have gone through. We’re flawed and we’re not perfect and we may act like we’re cold but that’s only because we fight so no one, you included never has to go through what we’ve gone through!” To Tosh’s own horror tears began filling up in her eyes and began running down her checks.


“The reason I wear these suits are not just because I like the feel of a well-cut suit against my body and not even for the reaction I get from Jack. No, the reason I wear them because it helped to hide what was beneath. The scars he cared from Canary Wharf, from the Cannibals, one too many close calls with a Weevil and all other dangers Torchwood brought into my life. We all have those kinds of scars because that is the dangers Torchwood brings.” Ianto spoke up softly and all eyes flew to the Welshman.


Ianto’s blue eyes bored into Gwen’s as he drove his final point home. “Gwen, you must remember not all scars are visible; the deepest ones are the ones you can’t see. I hope you remember the scars that you’re teammates carry.”


Jack was proud of his team for speaking up and letting Gwen know how they saw her treatment of them. “Gwen, they’re not trying to be mean, they are just trying to let you know how your treatment of them and callus and hurtful words make us feel. Yesterday you we’re way out of line, in your comments to me and the others and your actions. We are a team and no one can think they are more important then anyone else.”


Jack was happy to see true remorse shining in Gwen’s teary-eyes. “We’ll give you a few minutes alone to compose yourself.” Jack pushed back his chair and pulled Ianto up with him and was pleased to see Owen wrap a comforting arm around Tosh’s shoulders, he wasn’t sure if this could be the start of something between them given Owen’s admittance that he still loves Katie, but he could only hope that they found some type of happiness, like the kind he found with Ianto, with each others or others.


Left alone Gwen couldn’t help but think maybe just maybe she wasn’t the heart of Torchwood like she believed.


The End


( 28 comments — Leave a comment )
Jul. 12th, 2012 06:54 am (UTC)
Ah, that was so sweet, to see Gwen getting that hefty dose of reality that she so badly needed in the show, but never actually got.

I like that she was finally starting to get it towards the end, but I wonder whether it will last? She has never been good at self-confrontation, and it would be all too easy for her to convince herself that they're all just being spiteful because they're jealous of what she has.

More...? *looks hopeful*
Jul. 12th, 2012 07:13 am (UTC)
Glad you like it. My muses demanded that the others get to say their piece and break Gwen's happy bubble.

Gwen actually take their words to heart for a while but as her wedding gets closer she'll more than likely believe that they were just jealous of the life she has and the future she's planning with Rhys.

I do have at least four more planned, one for Something Borrowed and one for Adrift and Ianto still has to find out he's immortal which will take place after the SB ep and then a pure fluff one for Jack and Ianto.
Jul. 12th, 2012 10:04 am (UTC)
Nope, definitely not the heart.
Jul. 16th, 2012 12:23 am (UTC)
Nope, she is definitely not the heart.
Jul. 12th, 2012 10:59 am (UTC)
I loved the way you handled the confernation. Looking forward to more.
Jul. 16th, 2012 12:24 am (UTC)
Thank you! I'm glad you enjoyed the way I handled it. I hope you enjoy the next one.
Jul. 12th, 2012 11:03 am (UTC)
Bravo! Excellent job. I'm glad everyone got that off their chests.

Gwen staying with Jack always irked me in that episode. Good for Owen saying it should have been Ianto.
Jul. 16th, 2012 12:25 am (UTC)
Thank you! My muses thought it was only write that everyone got their say.

I never like a lot of Gwen's actions and I didn't understand why she stayed with Jack in End of Days when it should have been Ianto. It just seemed to fit Owen saying it, Ianto will still get his chance to say his piece to Gwen.
Jul. 12th, 2012 02:31 pm (UTC)
I've always hated how in the show Gwen got away with literally everything! She was callous, selfish and jealous but Jack kissed the ground she walked on while the others... well, they had to settle for the scraps. However my disdain is not only for Gwen, but for Jack too for using double standards.
In which way Gwen could be the heart of Torchwood??? Let's say the truth, he wanted to bed her because she reminded him of Rose. That's all! She is the newbie and already second-in-command??? PUAH!!!
Heck, she proved her unsuitability with Jonas' case. And the way she behaved when Jack was... dead??? Rhys deserved better than her!
Jul. 16th, 2012 12:30 am (UTC)
Thank you!
I agree with everything you said. I never understood how Gwen got away with half the stuff she did, any other job she would have been fired and out on her arse. Jack's treatment of Gwen was one of the main things I disliked about Jack.
I never say any proof of Gwen being the heart of Torchwood. She cheats on her boyfriend then Retcons him to ensure he doesn't leave her. I think Jack does see alot of Rose in Gwen but he ignores the flaws that both Gwen and Rose had.
Rhys will have his say to Gwen's treatment of him and I hope you'll enjoy the ending I'll give him.
Jul. 12th, 2012 02:48 pm (UTC)
Loved it!!!
Jul. 16th, 2012 12:31 am (UTC)
So glad to hear you did!
Hugs back!
Jul. 12th, 2012 03:18 pm (UTC)
Right, she so needed that speech!
Jul. 16th, 2012 12:31 am (UTC)
I thought it was about time.
Jul. 12th, 2012 04:14 pm (UTC)
I'm with blucougar on this. I don't think Gwen will ever really get it. She is too selfish and self-absorbed to focus on anyone else's feelings for very long. Look how she treats Rhys and Andy. She just uses people for her own ends with no regard for them or their feelings. I really, really don't like Gwen. Really. Seriously.
Jul. 16th, 2012 12:33 am (UTC)
You would most likely would be right. I've got the Something Borrowed one half written and we see the return of selfish and self-absorded Gwen. I'm with you on Gwen's treatment of others and I really don't like her either.
Jul. 12th, 2012 04:26 pm (UTC)
Love the fact that Gwen was made to hear the impact of her words and the reality of the depth of the others feelings/experiences. I look forward to more... Do I believe our Gwen will take it all on board for more than 24hrs..sadly not
Jul. 16th, 2012 12:35 am (UTC)
It was about time Gwen heard the truth about how she hurts her teammates with her words. I hope you enjoy the newest one and given this is Gwen she will be back to her oldself in the next few to come.
Jul. 12th, 2012 05:28 pm (UTC)
Wonderful =)
Jul. 16th, 2012 12:35 am (UTC)
Thank you :D
Jul. 12th, 2012 05:30 pm (UTC)
This is what should be canon then maybe Gwen would have a slightly better character then her canon.
Jul. 16th, 2012 12:36 am (UTC)
I think if Gwen got called out for her actions and actually realised how she treated others and tried to change, they maybe, just maybe, I might have actually liked her.
Jul. 12th, 2012 06:15 pm (UTC)
Gwen really needed to have to face the hurt she'd caused the team, but unfortunately, we never got to see that happen.

Gwen staying with Jack while he was dead was so wrong. She had Rhys, her reason for opening the rift, waiting for her at home, and she left him there alone so she could make a grand show of her devotion to Jack, not caring in the least that she was keeping Ianto from his rightful place at Jack's side. The whole thing smacked of selfishness, not the devotion the writers seemed to think it did.

It's too bad Gwen is incapable of retaining anything close to understanding toward her teammates. You have to have a heart to be the heart.
Jul. 16th, 2012 12:42 am (UTC)
Gwen really did need to see how badly she treated the team, but no way RTD could have his golden girl show she was wrong.

I never liked how Gwen just dumped Rhys, the man she placed the world in danger for, to sit at Jack's side. It should have been Ianto, he's the one Jack was involved with, I could never understand why the writers thought it was a good idea to have Gwen sit with Jack.

I competely agree with you about Gwen and her lack of understanding and heart.
Jul. 15th, 2012 12:17 am (UTC)
Loved it. That confrontation was well needed and even if that witch doesn't take it to heart (seeing that she doesn't have one, or a brain for that matter) the team was able to show that they have more heart than she ever did.

Also adored how you had Owen point out that she was 'grieving' next to Jack instead of home with her newly revived fiance. That part of the season really ticked me off, she goes through all of that trouble of opening the rift, and killing many people in the city, to get Rhys back only to sit next to Jack until he woke up, never mind that her fiance was killed and brought back to life.

Keep going, and maybe have Rhys break the Retcon? That scene was the one that infuriated me the most, her asking for his forgiveness and then, after he refuses, saying "That's okay. I drugged you with an amnesia pill, now forgive me so I feel better." That scene still makes me want to strangle her.
Jul. 16th, 2012 12:47 am (UTC)
Thank you. I always thought Gwen needed to be confronted on her actions and words, sadly that was never to be.

I had to address her 'grieving' over Jack and Owen seemed like the best one to bring that up. Gwen's actions in End of Days really ticked me off as well, she does everything to get Rhys back and then forgets him to sit with Jack.

I truly hated Gwen in that moment when she Retcons Rhys all to clear her guilt. I do have something planned where Rhys starts to remember at least about Gwen admitting she cheated on him. Rhys will have his say in the Adrift one of this series.
Jul. 22nd, 2012 07:58 am (UTC)
I never did understand why Gwen stayed with Jack. Sure, she loved him, but she wasn't WITH him.
Jul. 24th, 2012 09:01 pm (UTC)
I never understood it either, it should have been Ianto he was the one with Jack.
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