Fandom’s: Torchwood/Merlin/Doctor Who
Pairings: Arthur/Merlin, Jack/Ianto, Doctor/Morgana, Tom/Martha, Andy/Tosh, Rhys/Gwen, Owen/Gwen, Rhys/Donna, Morgana/Lisa, John/Owen, Ianto/Morgana, hints of John/Ianto, some Morgana/Tosh, Tommy/Tosh, Mary/Tosh, past Suzie/Tosh, past Morgana/Gwen, past Lancelot/Gwen and past Morgana/Gwen/Lancelot
Summary: For so long he has waited for his other half to be reborn, Ianto just never counted on Arthur to be reborn as a cocky, immortal captain.
Spoilers: All of Torchwood S1 and S2
Disclaimer: I do not own any of these shows
Author Note: Unbeta please forgive any mistakes
If you asked Ianto how he got home, he couldn’t give you an answer.
He was numb, bone deep numb, the kind of numb that easily engulfs a person leaving only ice in their veins.
He didn’t even notice the blood drying on his hands and suit,
Or how the tears he didn’t even know he was crying was mixing into the blood streak on his cheek.
Or the absolute shattered and haunted look in his eyes.
All he could see and hear was Lisa,
Her smiling up at Morgana with pure love,
Her laughing at his retelling of some of his and Arthur’s less than stellar moments,
Her comforting him when he got to missing Arthur too much,
Her beautiful eyes sparkling with amazement at everything new that Torchwood came upon,
Her horrified screams as she was converted,
Her muffled painful cries she tried to keep Morgana and himself from hearing,
How everyday she fought the implants off only to grow weaker with every battle,
Her making him promise if anything should happen to her, not to let Morgana give into her dark side,
But most of all what he will always remember is her finally whisper of, “I love you Morgana,” before the life faded from her eyes.
Entering his apartment it finally hit him, Lisa, Guinevere was gone, and she was gone and for all the power he has he could not save her.
“Ianto what’s wrong?” A deeply worried voice came from behind him and Ianto felt his breath catch.
Turning Ianto came face to face with his roommate, Morgana.
Morgana took one look at Ianto and felt pure worry and fear fill her at the sight her dearest friend presented.
Rushing to Ianto side she wrapped an arm around his shoulder and led him over to the couch.
“Stay right here.” She ordered, once she got Ianto seated and headed for the bathroom to get the first aid kit. It had been so long since she has seen Merlin this bad.
It was the look in his eyes that scared her the most; they were the eyes of a man who has lost all hope.
Her grip tighten on the first aid kit in her hands, he had the same look in his eyes when those Cyberman converted Lisa.
Icy horror griped her as she pleaded, “Oh please god, please no, don’t take have taken her away from me again.”
Willing back the tears, she put on a brave face, first she would tend to Ianto injures, and then she would seek answer, that she truly did not want.
Silence reigned as Morgana tended to Ianto injures. Ianto unable to tell Morgana the news that would no doubt shatter her and Morgana afraid to ask the questions that needs to be asked.
The tension was suffocating and Morgana finally could no longer stand it, she needs to know.
“Please Ianto, talk to me. Tell me what happened? Tell me why I can’t feel Lisa anymore?” Morgana pleaded tears spilling down her cheeks as she looked at Ianto.
“I’m sorry Morgana. You have no idea how sorry I am.” Ianto murmured tears falling from his eyes, that was the only answer he could give her.
But that was answer enough for Morgana and in that moment she felt her world end again.
The agonizing cry of pure heartbreak filled with such pain and sorrow echoed through the darken night; bring a tear to the eye of everyone that heard it.
Tears blurring his own eyes, Ianto could barely make out the form of Morgana who had fallen to the floor in body wrecking sobs.
Forcing his own numb body to move he gathered his broken friend in a tight hug, afraid to let her go, her tears quickly adding more stains to his blood soaked shirt, but he didn’t care as his own tears fell into her hair.
“Please no, not again. I can’t lose her again. Please Emrys; please tell me that this is not real. Please bring her back.” Morgana beg clinging to Ianto.
“I wish I could, Morgana. You have no idea how much I wish I could give her back to you.” Ianto whispered in her hair.
And the two friends clung to each other both mourning the woman one saw as a sister and the other as their greatest love.
In the darken and silent hub Jack sat staring blankly into the glass of whiskey he poured himself.
But not all was silent in Jack’s head, words filled with angry and pain echoed through out his office.
“Like you care. I clean up your shit. No questions asked and that’s the way you like it. When did you last ask anything about my life?”
“My loyalty is too her.”
“I’m not giving up on her. I love her. Can’t you understand that, Jack? Haven’t you ever loved anyone?”
“You’re worse than anything locked down there.”
“You like to think you’re a hero. But you’re the biggest monster of all.”
“Damn it.” Jack roared flinging the glass against the wall, whiskey and glass shards flying everywhere.
Anger and rage filling him,
At Ianto for bring this all down upon them, for hiding something so dangerous from them,
And at himself, he sees now that he could have handled this entire better. He should have never ordered Ianto to execute his own girlfriend, he sees that now. But at the time he had been so blinded by rage he didn’t think. Now he has to figure out what to do with Ianto.
In Torchwood One there had only been two ways death or recton.
And in truth neither of those options appealed to Jack, as angry as he is at Ianto, he is not ready to give up on the young man. He, himself has a lot to make up with Ianto; he should have been a better leader, sought out to include Ianto more, to make him feel more like a team member. Plus he wants a chance to earn the type of love and loyalty Ianto showed to Lisa.
Something about Ianto Jones intrigues Jack, something deep within him stirs each time Ianto flirted with him, and today when he held him in his arms and finally got a chance to kiss that tempting mouth, he never felt so alive.
“Ianto what are you doing to me?” Jack wondered.
He knows he is going to be savouring that one kiss for a while, because as much as he wants to take Ianto to his bed, they have a lot to work through first. He needs to help make Ianto more of a team member and Ianto need to earn back their trust.
But first he has to deal with this whole mess first, Ianto will be suspended for how long he doesn’t know. And then when Ianto returns he will make Ianto feel like a member of the team.
Casting a glance at the time, Jack sighed and climbed to his feet, it was still early enough for him to go inform Ianto of his decision, plus he needs to make sure that the boy does nothing stupid in his grief.
He is not ready to lose Ianto Jones just yet.