backrose_17 (backrose_17) wrote,

Fic: In the pain there is healing Chapter 11/25

Title: In the pain there is healing
Fandom’s: Torchwood/Doctor Who
Characters/Pairings: Jack/Ianto, Rhys/Gwen, Rhys/Donna, Andy/Kathy, John/Tosh, Doctor/Isabella, James/Jenny, Tom/Martha and Mickey/Jake and mentions of John/Ianto
Summary: How long can one person takes being the second choice before they break? And have Ianto and Rhys reached that point?
Rating: PG-13
Warnings: Gwen bashing
Spoilers: Torchwood S2 ‘Meat’ and ‘Something Borrowed’
Disclaimer: I do not own Torchwood, I am willing to take ownership of Ianto and Jack since RTD can not take care of them. I do own James and Isabella and all other original characters. I also don't own the song "Everything" by Lifehouse
Author Note: Unbeta so please forgive any mistakes.

Chapter 11

Lazing on his bed James watched with amusement as his sister paced back and fourth all the while muttering to herself.

“Couldn’t you do that in your own room? Your pacing is blocking the television.” James called out, trying to see past his sister.

Bell stopped in mid pace and glared at her brother.

James gulped, “or you could just stay here and pace, nothing good on anyways.” James tossed down the remote.

Bell rolled her eyes at her brother, ‘there is something that I am forgetting but what?’ Biting her lower lip she knows she is forgetting something, something very important to their parent’s future.

She just can’t remember what and it was driving her batty.

James sighed as he recognized the look in his twin eyes, ‘well there goes my plan on catching up on classic shows.’ James was not pouting, he wasn’t.


Ianto was in awe and greatly touched by Jack’s plans, never before had he had anyone arrange a romantic candle lit dinner, soft music playing in the background and the stars shinning brightly in the night sky.

“So what do you think?” Jack nervous sounding voice brought Ianto back to earth.

Turning Ianto smiled at the unsure Jack. “I love it; this took a lot of effort Cariad, thank you.” Walking over to Jack he placed a gentle kiss on Jack lips.

A bright smile spread across Jack’s face, so please that his first romantic gesture since Estelle, is going right. ‘Please just let this dinner go right.’ He pleaded.


“Here’s to lousy spouses may yours end up a sad lonely old maid, and in my case get eating by an alien spider.” Donna slurred, clinking her glass with Rhys.

“I’ll drink to that.” Rhys drowned his glass.

Rhys could remember the last time he felt so happy, so free, and something that if he could admit to himself, he hadn’t been with Gwen, not since she joined Torchwood and meet Captain Jack Harkness.

Or he could be the alcohol talking.

“You look much more handsome with a smile or your face.” Donna said resting her head on his shoulder.

No it was defiantly Donna that was making him happy.


The Doctor was not happy, not at all. His TARDIS is up to something and he has no clue what.

“Alright missy, I am serious this time, you tell me just why we are here.” The Doctor growled crossing his arms and tapping his foot.

The TARDIS remained stubbornly quiet.

“All right that is it, you young lady are grounded.” The Doctor informed his ship.


With a sigh Tosh closed her laptop, unable to focus on her work.

She was too worried about Ianto, afraid that Jack and Gwen dance finally broke her fragile friend heart. Ianto is a rare breed, when he loves someone, he truly loves them. Never before has Tosh seen the kind of love that Ianto gave to Lisa and now Jack. He put his whole heart into it and it was clear to anybody with eyes that he had fallen deeply for Jack.

‘If you break his heart Jack, I will remove your favourite part of your body.’ Tosh vowed silently to herself.

‘What is it about Gwen that draws men to her? Why do people like Ianto and me have to be second best to the ones we love?’  It wasn’t fair in Tosh eyes, Gwen had the most amazing man at home, someone who loves her, yet she wasn’t happy, she had to have ever man that caught her eye, and Gwen didn’t care about who she hurt.

“Where’s my knight in shining armour? Don’t I get a chance at a happy end?” Tosh asked the empty air.


Jack was happy so far the dinner was going well, but he knows he still has a lot of work ahead of him to prove to Ianto that he really did chose him and Gwen was never a choice.

Fiddling with his wrist strap he knew the first step, this was something he should have done at the wedding; instead of asking Gwen to dance it should have been Ianto.

“May I have the honour of this dance?” Jack asked holding his hand out to Ianto.

Ianto felt a thrill of hope spread through out his body that was all he wanted today, to be the one Jack asked to dance. “I would be honoured to.” He slipped his hand into Jack’s.

The immortal lead his young love out onto the make shift dance floor, “I chose this song, but because you are truly everything I will ever need.” Jack whispered into Ianto’s ear as he pulled him into his arms.

Find me here, Speak to me

I want to feel you,

I need to hear you

You are the light that is leading me

To the place where, I find peace again

You are the strength that keeps me walking

You are the hope that keeps me trusting

You are the life to my soul

You are my purpose

You are everything

And how can I

Stand here with you

And not be moved by you

Would you tell me

How could it be?

Any better than this

You clam the storms

You give me rest

You hold me in your hands

You won’t let me fall

You still my heart and you take my breath away

Would you take me in

Would you take me deeper now

‘Cause you’re all I want

You are all I need

You are everything


Could you tell me how could it be any better than this?

“It can’t get any better than this, not for me. You are my everything, Ianto and I am sorry for making you ever think you we’re anything but.” Jack admitted as the song faded off.

Ianto pulled away slightly to look Jack in the eye, “before I answer, I need you to answer me something.”

“Anything, just ask Yan.” Jack would tell Ianto anything to gain back his lover trust.

“I need to know how you truly feel about Gwen. I need you to tell me the truth, because I am not blind to the fact that you feel something for her, and I can’t risk getting my heart broken again, and I won’t if I know give the chance that if Gwen ever made the offer of something more that you would take it.” Ianto told Jack straight, he just couldn’t risk giving his heart to the older man again without knowing the truth.

Jack could hear the slight tremor in Ianto voice as he spoke; it broke Jack’s heart to know that he had the power to shatter this beautiful man heart.

“I won’t lie to you; I was attracted to Gwen in the beginning. And giving the chance I wouldn’t have hesitated to take her to my bed,” Jack had to tighten his grip on Ianto as the younger man tried to move away, “no, please listen to me, Ianto that was in the beginning, before you and I started. I will admit that I was an ass to you and I hurt you with my endless flirting and calluses remarks. And I am sorry for everything I have done to hurt you. I meant it when I said I came back for you. And yes I said the same thing to Gwen and that was mostly do to fear.”

“Why were you afraid?” Ianto asked softly.

Jack rested his forehead against Ianto’s, “I was afraid of how deeply I could fall for you. I haven’t let myself love anyone like this since Estelle, and that scared me. I thought Gwen would be the safer way to go, because when I eventual lost her it wouldn’t have shatter me like it would when I do eventual lose you. But than I realized that when I do lose you I wouldn’t have those memories to recall, all I would have is regret. And that is worse.” Jack admitted.

“I vowed to myself to make that I would treat you better, that I would do this right with you, make you know that you are not the second choice but the only choice. Only I failed and hurt you greatly. Please give me another chance, I want that future that gives us those trouble making twins of ours.” Jack stared into Ianto’s eyes baring his soul to him.

Ianto smile, “yes Jack, I will give you another chance.”

Jack didn’t hesitate as he pressed his lips against Ianto’s in a deeply loving kiss, one that Ianto happily returned to him.


“THAT’S IT!” The sudden shriek from Bell startled James so bad he fell of his bed.

“Oww, damn it sis,” rubbing his head James peek up from the side where he had fallen to glare at his sister, “just what the hell was that about?” He demanded to know.

Bell looked at James with pure fear, “in less than a week Ianto Jones is supposed to die.” The calendar she held in her hands was roughly thrust into James face.

James stared at his sister in shock for all but a moment before flying to his sister side and grabbing the calendar from her hands, his eyes widen as he took in the date.

“That’s why the TARDIS left us here; she couldn’t cross her own timeline.” Bell murmured under her breath.

James nodded his head, “and without the TARDIS, tad won’t be saved or granted his and dad’s greatest wish.”


Tags: fic: in the pain there is healing, pairing: jack/ianto, pairing: john/tosh, pairing: rhys/donna, twinverse
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