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Title: In the pain there is healing
Fandom’s: Torchwood/Doctor Who
Characters/Pairings: Jack/Ianto, Rhys/Gwen, Rhys/Donna, Andy/Kathy, John/Tosh, Doctor/Isabella, James/Jenny, Tom/Martha and Mickey/Jake and mentions of John/Ianto
Summary: How long can one person takes being the second choice before they break? And have Ianto and Rhys reached that point?
Rating: PG-13
Warnings: Gwen bashing
Spoilers: Torchwood S2 ‘Meat’ and ‘Something Borrowed’
Disclaimer: I do not own Torchwood, I am willing to take ownership of Ianto and Jack since RTD can not take care of them. I do own James and Isabella and all other original characters.
Author Note: Unbeta so please forgive any mistakes. I am posting two chapters because I am pretty sick and don' t know when I will feel better to post again.

Chapter 15

Looking at the scene before him, Ianto waited for Jack to break the kiss, only to feel his heart break completely as Jack made no move to do so. Silently he exited Jack’s office, willing himself not to break down.

He needed to get out of here, he couldn’t breath, he couldn’t think, all he was, was numb.

Worry filled the others as they watched Ianto leave the hub without saying a word that was not like him. Tosh headed for her desk and she called up the CCTV in Jack’s office and growled low and dangerous, like a mother bear protecting her cub, as she found Jack and Gwen locked in a kiss.

Whirling around she pointed to John, “Go after him.” She ordered.

John was more than happy too follow that order. James and Bell shared worried looks this was the moment that decided their fate.



As Gwen kissed him, Jack knew he should push her away, that she wasn’t the one he wants, but he can not deny that a tiny part of him wanted to truly taste Gwen.

He knows how easy it could be to give in and take what she was freely offering him, to push her against the wall and take her.

But the bigger part of him was screaming at him, reminding him at what he stands to lose for a brief fling with Gwen.

Images of Ianto, his beautiful Ianto exploded before his eyes. And the future they could have with Bell and James.

And he knew if he slept with Gwen, Ianto would never forgive him and that future would be nothing but a dream that haunted his lonely nights.

He shoved Gwen away from him.

Hurt brown eyes looked up at him, “Jack? What’s wrong?” Gwen asked trying to figure out what she did wrong.

Jack ran a hand through his hair, “Gwen that kiss was a mistake. I don’t love you like that. I’m in love with Ianto and he is the one I want to build a future with, not you.” He blurted out, “I will not risk my relationship with Ianto for shag with you.”

Gwen felt all her dreams come crumbling around her, “but you kissed me back. In that moment you wanted me, not Ianto.” She reminded him.

Jack fought back a wince, she was right. “Yes, I did. And that was as I said a mistake.”

“But Jack, Ianto would never have to know. I won’t tell him and I know you won’t, so where is the harm?” Gwen purred, knowing if she could have one night with Jack, he would see that it is she is the one he loves not that tea-boy.

Jack could see the plotting look in her eyes, he knows Ianto is right that she is in love with him, ‘I’m so sorry Rhys, I never meant for you to get hurt.’ He truly likes the man and is ashamed to know he is a reason that Rhys is suffering heartbreak right now.

“Gwen listen to me, I do not love you, not like that. Yes I flirted with you, and let you get away with things that I would never have let anyone else and that were a mistake on my part, that stops now. You are a member of my team and my friend, but that is all. There is only one member of this team that I want to be with and that is Ianto. If you can’t accept that then I am afraid there will be no place for you here.” Jack told her.

Gwen stared at Jack in shock, “you don’t mean that. You need me Jack, as you said I make you human. Plus what is to stop me from telling Ianto about our kiss?” She smirked knowing she has Jack trapped, if he is so in love with Ianto like he claims, then he will want to keep this from Ianto.

It takes a better type of conman to fool Jack, and only one on his team could fool him, and that was Ianto.

“Because I plan on telling Ianto about the kiss myself, I made vow not to keep anything from him,” he grabbed Gwen’s arm and glared at her. “I am warning you Gwen, I will not let anyone threaten my relationship with Ianto. And that includes you.” Jack growled in a menacing tone and for the first time Gwen felt truly afraid of Jack as she got a hint of the darkness that existed in her hero.

Anything that Gwen could have said to defend herself was taken away from her as Jack office door flew open with such force that they thought for sure it would have broken in half. Both turned to face who arrived and where taken back by an angry Tosh standing in the door way.

Before anyone could even form a thought Tosh struck, a loud smack echoed around Jack small office as Gwen clutched her stinging cheek, not done yet Tosh whirled around and delivered the same slap to Jack.

“Oww, Tosh what the hell was that for?” Jack demanded rubbing his aching cheek; damn Tosh had a nasty slap.

“What was that for? Because Ianto just left here heart broken after seeing you two kiss. How could you Jack, this was your last chance with Ianto and you blew it.” Tosh snarled at Jack.

Jack paled, “Ianto saw?” He whispered in a lost voice.

And some of Tosh angry melted, “he did, so tell me Jack was very promise you made to Ianto a lie, were you just using him until Gwen was free or did you mean it when you said it was him and only him you wanted?” Tosh asked.

Jack looked deep into Tosh eyes and spoke from the heart, “I love Ianto and only Ianto. I didn’t kiss Gwen she kissed me, but I should have pushed her way sooner and that is my mistake and now it could cost me Ianto.” He told her honestly.

And Tosh saw the truth in his eyes, “John Hart is here and he went after Ianto,” she told him, “you might be able to catch them before John makes his move.”

Jack growled low in his throat remembering the flowers John sent Ianto, and if Ianto believes that Jack truly wanted Gwen than he might leave with John.

Tosh watched with smugness as Jack ran out of his office, it severed him right for him to be worried that Ianto might leave him for John, she trust Bell and James to keep an eye on the three as she turned her attention back to Gwen. “Its time for you and me to have a little talk,” Tosh purred in a dangerous tone, shutting Jack door behind her.

Owen and James both shuddered at Tosh tone, Toshiko Sato is one scary woman when angry.


Exiting the hub Ianto leaned against the wall, his heart broken and shattered.

“Eye-candy, such a pretty face shouldn’t look so sad.” A voice purred from the shadows.

Blinking Ianto found himself face to face with a worried John Hart.

Pushing away from the wall John moved like a panther circling his prey, “so come on tell me what that idiot has done to make you look so sad.” He asked moving closer.

“Wait, don’t tell me, he promised you there is no one else and you caught him shagging or lip locked with someone, and I’m guessing that Welsh girl that works with you.” John guessed.

 John knew he guess right when Ianto lowered his eyes, ‘Jack, you’re lost is my gain.’

Before Ianto knew what was happening John had him pinned to the wall and trapped there with his body.

John’s hot breath drifted across Ianto’s parted lips, “Jack is a grade a fool if he chose that wrench over you. Come with me eye-candy, I know how to treat you.” John whispered seductively as he lowered his head those few inches and finally manage to kiss that tempting mouth.

Ianto froze unsure whether to push John away or return the kiss.

To remain loyal to Jack when he hadn’t or give in and accept what John was offering him.

The choice was taken out of Ianto’s hands as John was ripped away from him.

John felt the rage and anger in the punch as it landed firmly on his left cheek, whoever threw it held no strength back as the force of the blow knocked him off his feet.

An enraged Jack stood towering over John, “don’t you ever touch him again.” He snarled in pure rage.

Wiping the blood from his mouth, John climbed to his feet, “and what is it to you? From what I hear you were playing tonsil hockey with that Welsh girl who works with you. So that leaves eye-candy here free.”

All anger towards John was forgotten as Jack showed past his ex to get to Ianto. “Ianto listen to me. I didn’t kiss Gwen she kissed me. Yes I was tempted, but than I realized what I stand to lose if I acted on those lingering feelings for Gwen. I pushed her off and set her straight how I feel about her and you. I love you Ianto, not her. I promised I would never hurt you again and I meant it. Please Yan, you got to believe me.”  Jack pleaded with Ianto, after everything he could not lose Ianto because of Gwen.

“I want to believe you Jack, but how can I after what I just walked in on? After everything you told me, you still were tempted to be with Gwen, how can I trust you?” Ianto wanted to know.

“Because without you I am nothing, because with you this is real love. Not hero worship mixed with lust like it is with Gwen. I flirt with everyone that I meet and yes I went too far with my flirting with Gwen and manage to shatter two hearts yours and Rhys and no amount of sorry might not be able to fix the damage I have done. I have hurt you so many times that I don’t deserve another chance, but if you can find it in you to give me one last chance I will do everything in my power to be worth of your trust and love,” taking a breath Jack decide to revile something that he told no one, “during that year the Master manage to capture you and Gwen, he made me chose which one of you I would spare a brutal death, there was no choice I chose you Ianto, Gwen wasn’t even a choice, I couldn’t let you suffer at the hands of the Master.”

Jack looked deep into Ianto eyes, “you are the only thing that kept me going during that time, and the only thing that gave me strength to go on was the thought of coming home to you. You are my strength when I have to make the tough choices, you see me as a man not a hero, you know about the darkness in me and you accept that is a part of me, you now I have done things in my past that our awful and yet you don’t hold that against me. You accept me for me and that is something that no one has ever done. I can’t lose you Ianto; I wouldn’t know how to go on.” Jack whispered softly.

“Did you really tell Gwen there is nothing between you?” Ianto asked.

“Yes, I did, and it’s the truth, I told her that kiss was a mistake and that I would never risk our relationship for a one time fling with her. I told her there is only one person I am in love with and that is you.” Jack quickly told Ianto.

“If I hadn’t seen you kissing her, would you have told me?” This was the deal breaker question.

“Yes, after I pushed Gwen away and told her where my heart lies, I was planning on going straight over to you and telling you everything.” Jack told Ianto honestly.

Reaching out Ianto cupped Jack still red cheek, “I believe you Jack, but we are going to have to do something about Gwen, she won’t give up on been with you so easy, and I don’t share you, well with others.” Ianto growled in a possessive tone.

Jack couldn’t help but shiver at Ianto tone, he liked the idea of belonging to Ianto, “then you should know I don’t share you, well with others either.” Jack growled reaching out for Ianto and thrilled as Ianto willing came into his arms, he hadn’t blown it with this wonderful man.

Ianto snuggled deeper into Jack hold, yes there was still much to work out in their relationship and he was still hurt at Jack kiss with Gwen, but he is not willing to give Jack up and let Gwen get her claws into his man.


Forgotten John watched Jack and Ianto, and knew he stood no chance at winning Ianto away from Jack, which was such a shame. ‘Still no reason I can’t stick around and find out what their little cutie of a daughter meant about me and that little spitfire Tosh.’ Knowing he was no longer need John headed back into the hub to find Tosh.


“Can I still take you out for dinner?” Jack asked almost shyly.

“That would be nice Jack.” Ianto whispered back.

A familiar grinding noise had Jack groaning, “Oh you have got to be kidding me.” He growled out, it seemed the whole universe was against him wooing and making things right with Ianto. ‘Damn it, I will not let you win.’ He vowed silently to the universe.

The TARDIS door flew open and the Doctor came bouncing out, taking one look at Jack less than happy expression, “did I interrupted something?” He asked.



( 19 comments — Leave a comment )
Nov. 24th, 2010 10:47 pm (UTC)
love the up dates just read 14 & 15
Nov. 25th, 2010 12:30 am (UTC)
Glad you liked both chapters.
Nov. 24th, 2010 11:48 pm (UTC)
well it could have been worse!

*more coffee and cookies*
Nov. 25th, 2010 12:31 am (UTC)
Well there is still Donna and Gwen to meet, and a cat fight to come.

Thank you for the cookies and coffee.
Nov. 25th, 2010 01:25 am (UTC)
I'm so glad you put those two chapter up together. I'm glad Jack came to his senses. Now the Doctors in the mix - should be interesting.
Nov. 25th, 2010 02:29 am (UTC)
I figure with the way I'm feeling who knows when I would have gotten this chapter up and thought it would be best to post them at the same time. Yes Jack has finally come to his senses and it always interesting when the Doctor is around.
Nov. 25th, 2010 01:43 am (UTC)
Lovely, lovely, lovely!! Fantastic chapters!!! I am so in love with this story!! Maria xx
Nov. 25th, 2010 02:30 am (UTC)
Thank you so much, I'm very glad to hear you like the story.
Nov. 25th, 2010 02:27 am (UTC)
hope you feel better soon, happy thanksgiving to all. cannot wait to see tosh in action or jack/ianto deal with the doctor and donna/rhys deal the evil one.
Nov. 25th, 2010 02:33 am (UTC)
Thank you, I always get pretty sick in the winter time. Next chapter has Tosh "talk" with Gwen, Rhys and Donna meeting up with Gwen and Jack/Ianto dealing with the Doctor and the twins causing trouble.
Nov. 25th, 2010 02:51 am (UTC)

i'm not sure which storyline i want to beg for first.....

um, um, um, um

hmm i think i'm too inconherent to give a propper reply. you'll have to wait still i stop squeeling and bouncing up and down!!

Nov. 25th, 2010 05:26 pm (UTC)
So very glad you like the chapters. I hope I get feeling better soon to get some more chapters written to my stories, first been on the list this one, 'Magic Call' and 'Rising from the ashes'.
Nov. 25th, 2010 05:48 pm (UTC)

oh and just to be clear, i wasn't trying to be nasty pointing out mistakes on ff.n i just thought you'd like to know (come from my ingrained OCD :D). Just thought i should point that out cause i don't always have the best social interaction, my brain runs at a hundred miles an hour(yes i'm slightly hyperactive, hehe one of my lecturers told me he did know what a suger rush was till he met me...i hadnt had any sugar OR caffine that morning :S). neway back to train of thought.. oh yeah i think everyone else can keep up with my (very twisted) thought process which apparently makes me seem abrasive/rude at time.

... Also doesn't help i'm a tutor and HAVE to point out problem/potential problems

(semi replying to ff as well cause i cbf replying on both)
DEFINATLY a fan!! well enough of a ran to re read several chapters (chapters normally means read the last chapter casue i'm dying for an update and then keeping reading the previous one... reverse order reading is funny... also screws with your brain when you are sleepy :D)

hehe YAH for magic call update (LOVE that one!!). Rising from the ashes is good, gonna have to watch Highlander over break though (never actually seen it which makes it sightly confusing at time, but still.... makes me wanna watch highlander so i understand it :D)

^^hehe ramble.... i don't wanna work on my poster though *sulks back to post*, must not read... must not read.... must not read

*gives virtual chicken soup*
get better soon!!!! being sick sucks!
Nov. 29th, 2010 03:14 am (UTC)
No its fine when people point out some mistakes I've made it gives me a chance to correct them..

I'm glad that you are a fan of my stories. Magic Call is one of my favourite stories and glad that people like it. I love Highlander and after I got into Torchwood Methos/Ianto struck me as a good couple.

Thank you for the virtual chicken soup. I agree been sick sucks.
Nov. 29th, 2010 02:03 pm (UTC)
omg omg omg omg omg have u seen this weeks merlin???? darn stoopid cliffi!!!!

Hmm, highlander is still downloading...*grumbles* stoopid torrent with lack of seeds */grumbles*

chicken soup is good. i can never make it as well as my mum though :(

*is hoping for more of magic call *puppy dog eyes**
Nov. 26th, 2010 02:45 am (UTC)
It was very satisfying to see Jack *finally* being totally honest with Ianto and telling him how he feels. And I cheered when Tosh slapped Gwen! That was long overdue!

TBH I think this is what *should* have been on the show, instead of the crap we were stuck with: Jack being honest and appreciating Ianto, Gwen getting what she deserves, Rhys having someone better for him and a good match like Donna, Tosh being shown as the strong smart woman she is... No offense to people who like the show, just my opinion, but to me fanfic is always better than the show was.
Nov. 29th, 2010 03:17 am (UTC)
I like stories where Jack is honest with Ianto and open with his feelings. Tosh slapping Gwen came out of nowhere and had to have it in it.

I'm with you, I like the show but it is the fics that I adore. They gives us moments that the show miss, fixs plot holes and in general are just more fun to read.
Nov. 26th, 2010 07:02 am (UTC)
Hope you feel better soon! And NOT just because I want chapter 16!
At last Jack is talking here, and I love Tosh being a 'spitfire'! In fact, I'd love to see that conversation where Tosh and Gwen have their little chat....
Just one thing and it's not a criticism at all, I know it's just Word messing with your typing: Gwen's a 'wench' and Jack 'reveals'.
More please, soon- and get well!
Nov. 29th, 2010 03:19 am (UTC)
Thank you, been sick sucks.
Yep, Jack is finally talking here and I love Tosh showing her spitfire side. Tosh/Gwen talk is in the next chapter.
Thank you, Word can be a pain, sometimes.
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